GAINING FROM LOSS

Since you started losing your mind,
Your deepest secrets are emerging
from a soul I never knew.
You weren’t aware of the hidden reality
until you started losing your mind.
You tell me I am “smart and always have been.”
You are “proud of me to the point of elation.”
You wish you had produced another child
because the decisions you and Daddy made
were cruel and selfish.
You didn’t show your love enough
and you wish you could relive your life with me.
I tell you that I don’t hold it against you
because I’m the only one who gets all the stuff.
I lie because I still ache for siblings.
You are opening up like a creaky dusty book
and wiping away debris
You are finally expressing your love for me,
since you started losing your mind.