THINKING BACK ON THE LACKING

THINKING BACK
ON THE LACKINGS

A coming together
existence, after years
of falling apart.
A day I used to wonder
about, at night
with a racing heart.

I hated the life I was
starved for.
Eternal, continual needs.
Was disgusted by all of
my yearnings.
Crushed the flowers
but savored the weeds.

No revelations could
save me.
I repented when the ego
felt weak.
Answers, escaped
and evaded
due to all
that I did not
seek.